Like the old man I am, I have told you how I suffered before anybody else would use Mantra Thinking.

God love you, since you have had to do a lone job of fighting, you sympathize with all those years I showed people how to win and push the point and they refused to DO it. You’ve experienced it.

But there is another side to this, a fascinating side.

A GOOD side.

William Shockley, a dedicated pro-white who led the team that invented the transistor, told me how fascinating it was for him to read about the new uses to which the transistor was being used.

He got a Nobel Prize, and he liked the praise. But what kept him going was the daily invention of a new use for his invention.

There is a special feeling about seeing what used to be your private project get used that is a happiness only the creative get to enjoy.

Imagine being a diagnosed schizophrenic for decades. Then, suddenly, you find real people saying what you thought only Your Voices were telling you. The only thing that kept me from feeling schizophrenic when others ignored The Mantra was that my out of the box kept WINNING.

But when the enemy runs and you stand there on the hill you took away from them, again and again, waving your sword for your other troops to come on, and they just stand there, you can’t help but begin to suspect that you are the nut in the crowd.

BUGS discussions are fascinating to me because you are my Voices now.

Discussions that I only had with myself, and discussions BEYOND those that I only had with myself, are right here, new uses to which you put my thinking are FASCINATING to me!

Oh, yes, you can keep patting the Old Man on the head because you understand his past Sufferings. Hell, I was in a Jewish-culture country where self-pity as a sport outranks baseball.

The point of this piece is that I want you to realize the unique joy, joy I have earned, that your writing gives me.